I should follow the advice I give to others. And I guess it's about time. I have nothing bad to say, because I guess it's the best thing for both sides. We'll part and find our own happy-ever-afters. Because we do both deserve to be happy xxxxxx

So, I didn't get my dream job first time around. Yknow... It would have been nice to be in the 2% that get it on their first try, but apparently it wasn't meant to be. I've had a good cry, even banished myself to my bedroom, but it didn't last long. It's not that I'm over it, I'm not. I still want this more than I've ever wanted anything. But I've gained so much to be angry at myself. I got so far. I'm still so happy and delighted with myself. I've put in applications for the rest of the middle eastern airlines and ill apply for the basics too. Cos ill fly, one day...

It's just a stepping stone, I'm on the right path... Just a few more jumps. Got to leap out of my comfort zone more often and reach for it. For a practise I guess I did really well...

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Confidence is something you're born with, or so I thought. I thought I'd forever be the shy awkward girl... I don't think like that anymore. I've accomplished something I never thought I would by stepping out of my comfort zone and actually going for it. I've got my fingers crossed that I get this... I'm 99% sure that I won't, but 1% of me is hopeful. If I don't get it, it won't be a surprise, ill probably have a little cry... But I've gotten so much out of this already that its okay and ill still be happy and my second try will be even better than my first.